Monday, January 23, 2012

Soft pretzels

What should you do when its icy and cold and the house is full of vibrant children? When the dishes from the birthday party are still filling the kitchen ( since saturday)? Why make a bigger mess! But actually- these were perfect: one bowl, the children could do everything themselves and rolling was entertaining. Plus, they turned out incredible. Now .  .  . to clean the kitchen, again.


Soft pretzels

What should you do when its icy and cold and the house is full of vibrant children? When the dishes from the birthday party are still filling the kitchen ( since saturday)? Why make a bigger mess! But actually- these were perfect: one bowl, the children could do everything themselves and rolling was entertaining. Plus, they turned out incredible. Now .  .  . to clean the kitchen, again. 

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

growing

I do not normally turn so far inward when I pull in. Being social- I thrive on community. But this fall and winter, I feel so many things brewing and growing. So many, I can't even journal, write, paint or create about them. I hear that I should be still, but also want to grow so fast- I forget I am doing exactly that. Growing. I am growing myself, my daughters, my marriage, my home. I am growing in mind and heart, and belly. Just like when I get caught up with what I "should be" teaching the children. And how much they should know and how they should learn it- I get caught up in my own learning. And forget I can homeschool too.
I want to go to workshops, I want a teacher. I want someone to guide me. I do not always want to be the teacher. I want someone to show me things I do not know. And I forget, those someone's are not always older, just wiser, then me.
I do crave a teacher, and a guide. But that person is not here now. And even if they were, how would I make time for their lessons. Here before my children, my family and I are all the lessons we need, with the proper time frame. We have the universe within, the universe beyond, and the universe we are within- all to  explore. We ( I ) do not need to find a teacher to learn any of the concepts I seek to understand. I have a daily practice in patience and mindfulness. I have a custom designed workshop that encompasses my whole life! I have a great many tools at my fingertips- and they materialize as needed.
I am not less educated, less wise, or less committed because I do not go to classes and get certifications. I know these truths in my head- but sometimes I forget, a little. I want to one day be a woman who can help women not have so many hats, and roles- that we can just be, and be enough, and be everything as and where we are. Well then, that is a challenge I must take on here when it is before me.
So I will learn my lessons, from my heart. From my husband. From the hearts of my children. From the little extra heart beating extra fast within me. And I will bring them out into the world.
Because hysterically, when I  stop straining, its all right before me anyway.